Coffee in the a.m.
Coffee: French press or toddy.
Breakfast: Oatmeal or a piece of whole grain bread with almond butter, honey, chia seeds, and banana slices.
My mornings are routine. I am a person of routine, of habit, prone to doing the same thing over and over and over. Part of the reason why I love distance running and am blessed with it: I’m willing to do it over and over and over every day, now twice a day.
I am reading through the Bible on my ipad, which has been great to click through the days, to read both New and Old Testament together each day, and to see how they go hand-in-hand, like coffee and cream.
As I was drinking my coffee…I was thinking, I wish I enjoyed reading God’s Word as much as I enjoy reading blogs. As you can see, without thinking, blogs is the first of the list.
Here are my daily blogs posted on my bookmark menu:
The Stines. Thanks for being in Res Life like me. Thanks for being honest about post-grad life and college life. And, life life. I love reading your life in words and pictures.
Shauna Niequist…btw, I love her new blog site. Beautiful. Quirky. Fitting for Shauna.
Elizabeth’s Running blog. (I found hers through the blog below….)
Hungry Runner Girl. love. love. love.
Anyways, I came to the realization that I have a slight love for blogs. I connect with others who write, who write out of honesty, out of their lives, who are honest to what God is doing in their lives. But, I also realized this morning that blogs
equal Bible reading. I connect with people, but more than anything I connect with God. And, we need to connect and talk daily. I need to be in His Word daily, more than just Jesus Calling.
However, I gleaned some wisdom from today’s Jesus Calling:
Waiting on me means directing your attention to Me in hopeful anticipation of what I will do. It entails trusting Me with every fiber of your being, instead of trying to figure things out yourself…
Then, I came to a terrible realization.
I “one-step” God.
If you don’t run at the collegiate level you might not know what I’m talking about. But, in running or workouts, it’s one of the most annoying tendencies competitive distance runners can have when running or doing a workout. It’s when one person must have a step in front of the other person, even though they are working together, running the same workout. It’s irritating. Especially when it’s your teammate. Or someone you love to run with.
One-stepping might be termed as “competitiveness,” but I think, at the very root is fear and distrust.
You don’t trust the person you are working together with enough to let them control the pace.
I try to pride myself on not one stepping during workouts and working with the person.
But now, I realized…
I do it in my life.
In my walk with Christ.
I trust him, but not enough to not try and control the pace…or to see what’s next.
I have faith in him, but not enough to stay by His side, instead of finding a way to one-step.
Lord, thank you for letting me one-step, but for teaching me that I need to trust you.
Enough to let you control the pace.
Enough to be behind you in this workout…called life.
Goodness, I still can’t believe that I one-step. That has got to change.